The first week of July flew by quickly. The days were full, but I still feel a little bit like they’ve escaped me. Have you ever felt like that? It’s strange. I don’t feel like that handful of days lacked anything necessarily, but there’s still an odd and lingering sense of longing. This is probably due to some kind of inherent personality flaw that I don’t particularly want to look too deeply into. So. Here are a few of my July goals:
Paint. I’ve been reading a lot about intuitive painting and journaling, and the work I’ve seen has been inspiring. It’s been ages since I’ve really put my heart into any artwork. In the past, my personal art making process has served primarily as a coping mechanism. When I actually feel well, I tend not to create. It seems rather a sad thing, and it’s something I’d like to change. What does “happy” art even look like? I don’t know. I’d like to explore it. This is top priority, I think. How great would it be to build up a new portfolio? My style has changed significantly in the last five years (and yes, it’s been that long since I’ve made anything worthwhile).
Read three books. The number is completely arbitrary, I just know I’d like to spend some more time reading. I’m currently working my way through book number one.
Make an effort to be positive. It’s the little day to day things, really, but those things add up and can weigh people down. I want to be someone who lifts people up. I can often be critical, over-reactive, and short tempered, and I’d really like to make more of an effort to be more thoughtful, especially in regards to myself, and the people I care most about.
Visit a museum. This is somewhat less of a priority, because it’s summer and the whole seacoast is swimming with tourists. It would be nice, though, to visit one with Timothy before he leaves for the entire month of August. Neither of us has been to the Ogunquit Museum of Art, and I’d love to visit!
Get my hair cut. It’s been well over a year. Now that I am most assuredly committed to longer hair (for a while), I just want something that frames my face nicely.
Drinking: Shipyard Melonhead, likely my final couple bottles of the season. This is not to say that it’s a bad tasting beer, but much like its autumnal sibling, Pumpkinhead, I can only drink maybe three a year. It’s a bit special, and I don’t ever want to take away from that.
Listening to: Don’t judge me (or do), but I obsessed with the Precision Soca Remix version of Hula Hoop (after hearing the original song only like… a month ago because I’m old and out of touch). It’s summertime. Deal with it.
Reading: Hearts in Atlantis by Stephen King.
Snacking: Have you tried any of the Buddha Bowl popcorn flavors from Lesser Evil? I’m really into “Avocado-Licious,” and Tj likes “Himalayan Pink.”
Wearing: I’m still in love with the handful of Pura Vida bracelets I bought earlier this summer, especially the black sterling lotus. It’s become a comforting part of my “leaving the house” routine. Just a reminder that you can save 20% on any Pura Vida order using the code NAOMIDENSMORE20 at checkout. Also, dear Mainers (and aforementioned seacoast tourists): check out Loyal Citizen in Portland! We hadn’t yet been into the brick and mortar store, and were pleasantly surprised when we stopped in last week. Wear your Maine pride and support small business! There’s a design for just about anybody, but I’m most fond of the Joshua Chamberlain print, available on both men’s and women’s tees.
I haven’t shared monthly goals since February, so it seems as though actually blogging ought to be on my goals list. I am making a mental note of it. It is noted.
But let’s talk about summer. The sudden sunshine is motivating.
Set up my laptop. Tj recently bought a new laptop, so his Macbook Pro has been handed down to me. I’m a little over my head; it’s much newer than any computer I’ve used in the last few years, and it’s been literally over a decade since I’ve used a Mac. To write this post, though, I’ve already had to switch computers (twice) and email photos to myself, which just isn’t sustainable. Or necessary. I need to move my files, and I definitely need to make a software decision or two. Do you use Adobe Creative Cloud? How do you feel about it? I’m almost 100% certain that the Photography plan (which includes just Photoshop and Lightroom) will be more than enough to do both blogging and internship work.
Reach out to brands I want to work with. Aaaah. This is a big scary one. I actually emailed some companies today, and I was a giant ball of nerves before hitting that “send” button. But here’s the thing: I realized that I would much rather reach out to the companies I already love, support and promote in real life, than wait for random brands I have no feelings for whatsoever to reach out to me. If I make an effort, and am kind and genuine, something good may come from it. Or it won’t. But certainly nothing bad is going to happen.
Get. In. The. Water. We didn’t really surf at all last summer. Or, I certainly didn’t. My surfboard hasn’t really been touched since I moved into the house. There were a lot of things holding me back. At the moment, I think I’d be happy just to float and paddle and probably fall off the board a few times, so really there’s no excuse not to go to the beach.
Date night. Have I mentioned that Tj is leaving for four weeks at the end of July to work at the Olympics? And how that is a little bit (or… how about very) surreal and stressful? Four weeks is a long time, and Brazil is very far away. I feel like we definitely need to fit in some quality, device-free time for ourselves. And good food. And probably some wine.
It’s not here yet, but August is going to be a little difficult. I’m trying my best to stay in the moment, but it’s not easy. I will definitely be making an effort over the next few weeks to enjoy these days as they come. Summer moves so quickly.
February is a tough month, right? It’s still winter, but I have already become anxious for spring. The fluctuating weather is not helping, but I realize I shouldn’t complain about temperatures in the 50s. I’m trying hard to live in the now, or whatever, but you know. I want sunshine and bike rides and the ocean. I do have a more steady schedule than just a month ago; the semester started last week, and I just began a internship of sorts at a local museum. Being busy helps a lot. Here are my goals for the month:
Eat somewhere new. There are a few places in Portland that are on our list. It would be a nice treat, for sure, and something fun to look forward to.
Finish two books. I’ve got one on hold that I’m looking forward to picking up again. I also have a lot of reading to do for class, but I’ll make it happen. It’s a matter of using my time a little better (like, not binge watching shows I’ve already seen three times).
Purchase some professional (ish) clothing. Not much of what’s in my closet right now fits appropriately. That being said, I’m not actually willing to get rid of anything because 1. it’s all really nice, and 2. I literally just need to lose like eight pounds and I’ll be comfortable (and feel more like myself) again. I need pieces I can wear to work at the museum in the interim. There’s not really a dress code, especially because the site is closed for the season, but I feel like something beyond jeans and a cardigan would be appropriate come spring. Professional attire has always sort of alluded me, because I’ve never really had to develop this part of my wardrobe. When I try to shop for these things, I either can’t find anything that fits properly (dress pants are not made for short girls with butts), or I end up looking like a completely different person. Not cool. I’m not sure what the solution is, here. Skirts and dresses, I suppose.
Make time for friends. I haven’t seen my lady friends since before Christmas. Thankfully, we have some stuff coming up this month. I’m also thankful that they understand how terrible I am at socializing. I’d like to be better, though. I’d like to be able to go out for coffee like a normal person without it being an event. I will get there.
Get my hair cut. It’s time. I’ve waited far too long and I am a mess. Just …ugh. This needs to happen ASAP.
I think that’s probably it. Keeping it simple and (hopefully) attainable. How about you?
We made it. It’s 2016! Here’s to you, and everything you accomplished.
There’s snow on the ground (finally), and I’m more or less back to my normal routine, for whatever that’s worth. I rang in the new year with Thai carryout with Tj’s family, followed by a comforting, solitary
bottle glass of wine (and a mug of chamomile tea). I’m old.
These are my January goals:
Get outside. This is a big one. New Year’s Eve morning had me feeling black and gloomy, but when I took a moment to think about it, I realized I hadn’t spent any serious time outside in days. I took a walk into town and then through the woods behind our house and felt like a different person. Sunshine is really important to my well-being. I make jokes about locking myself inside, but outside is, of course, not the problem. It’s prolonged human interaction that I struggle with. I am thankful to live where we do, surrounded by trees and so close to the ocean.
Find doctors. As of today, I have new health insurance! This year, I’m going to use it. It’s time to track down a GP and probably a therapist, and maybe get my eyes tested (which could perhaps help provide an explanation for my migraines). Getting stuff done!
Sort through and sell some toys. I took a bit of an eBay break during the holiday because I didn’t want to worry about shipping. Also, at the beginning of November I shipped out a huge box of My Little Ponies to Poland, and the whole process involved with that transaction was a little stressful and seemed never ending (and, in fact, has not yet ended). I need to take new inventory of what’s left and get some things posted. To those of you familiar with my original collection, don’t worry, I’m still keeping something like 60+ ponies to myself. Glitter and rainbows for life.
Eat green things. This is self explanatory, right? I’d also like to work some healthy vegetarian meals into my normal winter rotation. Soups and chilies seem like a good springboard. It’s definitely time to start throwing spinach into everything. I’m still not really down with kale. Sorry.
My goals for the month are simple, and I don’t really have any New Year resolutions per se. I think I’d like to let myself have more fun, try new things, be a little less reserved. I’ve spent the majority of my life thus far constantly thinking “I’m too ___ to do ___,” which is …limiting, obviously. I have missed out on probably more than I know; I’m scared of basically everything. I would like to be less scared. I would like to smile more. So I think this year I’d like to work on reaching out when I wouldn’t normally reach out, and on taking advantage of opportunities wherever I happen to be. No numbers, no limits, no “absolutely must do or else(s)” this year, just a little bit of stretching. Tips of fingers, tips of toes.
And, always, I want to be kind to the people I stumble into along the way.
I’m a little late on this one. I’ve been experiencing a serious lack of motivation, here, struggling against a head cold. I’ve also been busy with my final project for the semester, but next week is our last class! It flew by.
I hope this month is treating you well. Do you have snow, yet? There’s none here in southern Maine, but I’m hoping for a white holiday. Even just a flurry would put me in the right spirit.
Finish holiday shopping. This one is obvious. I’m mostly done. I also need to mail out our cards!
Wrap up all my lose strings from moving. I’m embarrassed about this, but I still have maybe a handful of chores left from moving over the state line. Yes, it’s been months. Finalizing health insurance (that’s actually a new task), finding new doctors and switching over my license. All that good stuff. Let’s get that done.
Take time to read. This one astounds me, when I think about it. Most of the reading I’ve been doing lately has been for school. I haven’t really curled up with a good book for myself in weeks. Rather than zoning out to Netflix marathons, I’m going to dedicate those hours instead to the shelves of books I have waiting to be read.
Get back into a fitness routine. I was really good about walking every day over the summer, but I’ve let it slide with the onset of cold weather. Tj’s mum has offered me a guest pass to her gym (she also walks every single morning), so I think I might take her up on that offer. I really just want to dedicate a few hours every week to cardio. I’ve been a bit of a potato. Well, a lot of a potato.
Try a new recipe or two. It’s the time of year that I try to stretch myself when it comes to baking. I’ve got a couple old favorites, but I’d like to add something new to the dessert rotation.
The rest of this month is so full of socializing and THINGS TO DO that I am planning on spending the first week of January inside with the doors locked. #introvertsunite Here’s to not letting winter get me down. And you. Do you have any December goals? Share in the comments!
Thanks for stopping by. My name is Naomi, and this space is made of girldust. This blog is a picture of my comfortably scattered life on the coast of Maine. I'm trying to be a slightly better version of myself every day. I like old houses, reading, the ocean, ghost stories, and museums. You can learn a little bit more about me here.